Wednesday, January 11, 2006
moved blogs
got tired of this one
too much of him in it
and he is disgusting
a man whore and nuthing more
check it out : http://indulgent-muffin.blogspot.com
much love. xoxo, marlene
Dark Memories[5:42 AM]
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Every blown out candle on the birthday cake,
every fleetin second of a shooting star,
every broken eyelash,
every god forsaken prayer,
would never make me trust in myself again.
And the golden muse played the song so perfectly,
Down to the last wanton note,
down to the last deceptive lyric.
it was all so beautiful
it was all so rushed.
it was all so imperfect.
I dreamt of chipmunks underwater
And a floating bra.
I had new socks on.
Dark Memories[8:46 AM]
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
> Kudos to robbie for eating so much wasabi instead of delivering a lame apology. But ur still my man servant. :D
> And thats for you Mr Alex from Conneticut. Lose the cheeseball routine.
> the question i find myself asking so often. PLUS a hott pic of johnny depp. sigh. lovelyness! :D:D
Dark Memories[1:15 AM]
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Holy...shit. Its 2006.
For real you guys, its one whole year.
I dont know if 2005 has been a gd yr or not. I honestly dont.
Everything has kind of lapsed into one whole mass of years. A whole sequence of events.
I don't know if Ive moved forward from 2004 or backward or perhaps I am exactly at the same place....
Lord knows I cant figure it out.
I barely remember all of what happened yesterday or the day before that for the matter.
I have one resolution for 2006, savour life. Live it slower, not to rush things, and realize whats actually going on before ruining it.
I wonder if she'll notice that shes lost all power in the relationship
He holds all the cards, He has the control
and she'll grovel with her heart broken and her tail between her legs
she'll lose all dignity and respect for herself
And I wont noe what 2 say 2 her
For once in my life I will not know what to say to her
"I told you so" would be too cruel
"better luck next time" would be too nonchalant
"He loved u" would be me just lying 2 her face.
I worry about her cos shes lost her head already.
Shes sunk into obsession and further into him than before, if that was even ever possible.
Maybe I dont get their complex relationship
or the fact that everyone makes a mockery of it
of her.
but i dont get how she could trade in her power, her control, her deck of cards just to be with someone who threw her aside like trash before.
maybe i have too much pride and shes really the one i should try to be like
but right now she just seems like a babbling moronic fool,
even a hopeless romantic has more integrity but shes surpassed that and gone straight to fool
like i once did.
i wonder if she'll ever realize that he has the whole hand of cards
and i wonder if she'll ever realize that her imaginary wedding in her head right now that i noe she has so intricately planned out will never take its course
i wonder if she even notices my disdain 4 him is becos i dont want to be the one picking up the pieces, left with the uncomfortable lines to say to her at the end of it all.
im a selfish biggot but at least im not in "love"
Dark Memories[7:00 AM]
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
1. When u looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? "ugh"
2. How much cash do you have on you?: $190
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? rest
4. Favorite planet? venus
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell? soren
6. What is your favorite ring on your phone? my phone vibrates :)
7. What shirt are you wearing?: A pink tee that says "Where wild things come from"
8. Do you label yourself? I dunno. Alex Simmons says I'm a prep so I'll go with that cos hes my "emo gangsta"
9. What brand of shoes you are wearing right now? topshop shoesies
10. Bright or Dark Room? bright
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey? i luv her, shes mon petit furet!
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say? Can you come out tonight? I haven't seen yous in agessss! Miss ya loads and love ya baby!
15. Where is your nearest 7-11? The one by far east plaza which is 5 mins walk frm my place
16. What's a saying that you say a lot? "oh em gee" and "are u serious?" and "thats so fucking hilarious"
17.Who told you they loved you last? soren
18. Last furry thing you touched? Hari's dog
19. How many drugs have you taken in the past three days? uhhhh one kinda pills.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? none?
21. Favorite age you have been so far? 2
22. Your worst enemy? i dont really have enemies, i just have ppl i dislike
23. What is your current desktop picture? me and niki with a fuzzy hat on being gangsta'
24. What was the last thing you said to someone? "did u c where i put my new undies?"
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, which would you choose? A million bucks.
26. Do you like someone? Yes.
27. The last song you listened to? Vagina song - bloodhound gang
Dark Memories[8:25 PM]
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
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The vociferous staleness that inhabits the air
The silent treachory that has been beseeched
So I'll wear your pretty promise ring
It represents us -
A melange of my deception and your devout adoration
An air of cool reserve that forms as my carapace
A shield to the unsaid and our fabrications
The sopofiric merry-go-round of ceaseless whispers
My occasional subterfuge that throws you off course
Let the merciful incantation serve to you an anondyne of paranoia.
Dark Memories[8:04 PM]
Saturday, December 24, 2005
OOOOOOHHHH
I GOT A JOHNNY DEPP PICTURE SIGNED BY HIM!
OMG OMG OMG OMG!
how awesome is tt?
my aunt got me his autograph
id like 2 take this time 2 firmly announce
that he is the MOST GORGEOUS man alive
and hes absolutely perfect
and hes a god!
THE MAN IS A GOD!
Id marry a man like tt in a heart beat and im not one for commitment!!
sigh.im a happy muffin queen.
Dark Memories[6:21 AM]